Psalm 139: 1-5

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

This first section strikes a lot fear into my mind and heart when I first read it. This might be different than some people. Some may read this and just think that God just simply knows a bunch of stuff. As if it would be a cool thing if he could come down to earth and put Wikipedia to shame. For me it was the actual realization that God knows not just facts and great wisdoms, but he also knows me. But not just my personality, but who I am, and what I have done, and what I am going to do. He knows of the sin on my hands: past, present, and future. But since we are humans living in the future I think that is why it scares me the most. Whenever I commit a sin right then and there, I can count on God knowing about it. Being right there when it happened. How scary is that?

It’s like when you were a kid and you wanted the cookie out of the cookie jar. Your mom said no, but as soon as she left the room you were going to make a break for it. As you were pulling the delicious cookie out of the jar, holding it high in victory, there your mother came. Standing there and watching you as you went against her will to fulfill your desire. For me, it’s the same thing. Now I don’t know about you, but I love my mother, and I would never want to hurt her feelings like that. The feeling of letting someone down that is close to you, is a really crappy feeling. And with this passage it gives that same feeling. Because right then, when we sin (especially when we know about it right then), we know God is there. We didn’t win or get away this time. We were caught red handed.

So not only does God’s power extend to the point where he knows when I am leaving the house or sit down to dinner, but also to the point where he knows my feelings and my very actions. He knows. Past, present, future. Now shouldn’t this change the way we think, act, and simply do things? Hopefully it will. Because we should we be thankfully that although God knows of all our transgressions, through Christ our sins are forgive and we are set free.

I am going to Hume Lake for the next week. I am leaving tonight at midnight, and I have still yet to pack. This is awesome, considering I have three more hours to do this and I am still obsessed with messing around with my new Mac Book Pro. I am going to miss it, but I am even more excited to see what God is going to do in my life and the lives of others around me. Yay God. And yay Wildwood.

I am going to a Demon Hunter, Oh Sleeper, Living Sacrifice show tonight. Going to be amazing. If I can snag any pics, I'll Flickr them. If not, I just might tell you about it. I'm going with Ashur, Shammy, and Zach so far. Rad. Other than that, today's been pretty dull. May be a good thing.

Peace.

Yea. I got a blogger a while back. Don't use it too much anymore. If anything I like wordpress a lot better. Either way, blogging is easier said than done. I might get into it more, but only time will tell.

Oh and my Macbook Pro will be here in a few days... but i won't. How sad... :(

Boy was this a dull post...